10.02.2016

he comes





exhausted//.

i woke up this morning with eyes more tired than the night before.
the trees swayed in the October breeze. the sun shone its October warmth. (yet it was more lonely that way.)

i sleepily watch as Fall sets in to the month. a tree out in our yard is already burning orange and losing leaves. the trees are cold to the touch in the morning. 

and this heart is breaking more and 
                                                                       more.


indigo blue//.

the stars were up way before the sun. so was i. (for the first time in a long, long time.) it was sad. the birds were still quiet in their nests and the traffic light turned from red to green for a lonely car. 

i remember i climbed that hill as fast and hard as i could. to run, run, run away from the things i couldn't face. you. them. the pain that was already choking me. no one was there.

i've tried to move on, but these things haunt and
                                                                                                             haunt.

she calls//.

i called out into the valley for an Answer. and it came. sweet and soft, but burning powerful. a wild pain that required sacrifice and death. 
(a cold wind flew through and that's when i knew.) the Lion said it all.

i can still feel the ache. i can still see the blood and the wounds. i sat against the wall and cried until my throat was sore. (He comes.) the Shepherd sat beside me and hugged until there was nothing left.

don't you ever doubt it.
                                 (He comes.)



xx
it's been a really long week.




21 comments:

  1. I'm sorry :( The fact that you turned a hard time into such beautiful words is wonderful. It's one of the ways an artist can most nearly imitate the Creator- beauty from ashes. xx

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    1. ninA. tell me about it. thank you beyond the moon, girl. spot on. <333 xx

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  2. Cally. I can not tell you how much this says it all.
    It has been lonely.
    It's been completely and utterly exhausting.
    And this.
    This is what my heart has so longed to hear.
    xoxoxo
    -e

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    1. And today I slept in.
      The rain went on through the night.
      But God is still good.
      *hugs*
      here's to the day we aren't tired anymore.
      xxxx loves.

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  3. That was beautiful. Words, photos, the whole thing. I'll be praying for you!
    -Mikayla-

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    1. AWWW. thank you so much. ugahgh. that makes my little heart so happy :')

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  4. this is stunning, cally. i am ever amazed by your ability to write so beautifully.

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    1. avaaaaaa. i've missed you!!! thank you so much. it's honestly a gift from God. *wiggles fingers* :) xxxx

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  5. What is this?? Ah, so beautiful <3
    I feel it, I feel it so much.

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    1. AHH. it's something lonely and painful and good. sending love your wayy. thanks Liz. xx

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  6. OMW two Cally posts within a week - yay!! this...this is amazing. *hugs you* love, love this bit: "sweet and soft but burning powerful" -- and "hugged until there was nothing left." the Lion has given you a real gift with words...words that are so inspiring.

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    1. HAHAAH. oh my goodness andrea. :') i love youu. yes, He has. oh my goodness. i know *dances* i literally have no words for this comment except screaming. xx loves.

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  7. ***************** IS SOBBING **********************************************

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    1. this reminded me of ecclesiastes 3:11, and it reminded me of me and the One who carried the weight of the whole world on his shoulders and still loved, loved, Loved. it's all too heavy and searingly beautiful for a heart like mineidsjkfc!/:pe

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    2. **********************IS DYING OF LOVE**************************

      amen, girl. i looked it up and i prayed and stared at the sky and then it rained and i watched sunsets and everything. goodness. xx you are precious. *hugs*

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  8. You always manage to turn something difficult into something stunning, and I love you for it <3

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    1. HAH. *distant sobbing* just kidding. but that is the sweetest thing, Grace Anne. i think i write from the heart more and it kind of spills out into a emotional puddle of words. LOVESSS. xx

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  9. wow I am sitting here and thinking about how I can write a comment to accurately describe the feelings going on in my heart right now. <3 "the Shepherd sat beside me and hugged until there was nothing left. / don't you ever doubt it." tears and chills and more tears. this is incredible and so are you <333333

    lotsalove,
    abbiee

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    1. am i crying.
      i'm crying.

      abbieeee. thank you so much. AGH. thank yous don't quite seem to cut it but it's litERALLY ALL I CAN SAY. *shouts thank you from the rooftops* lOVES. my goodness. :'))) xx

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  10. WOW. You are good at this--amazing talent to catch emotions.
    I'd be absolutely complimented if you would stop by my blog, Mic's Room (http://lovelypinkduckshome.blogspot.com/)
    Send me a note to let me know you stepped in.
    -Mic

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    1. crryyy. you are SO SWEET. thank you so much. i'll drop some peaches on your doorstep. thanks for the visit, mic! *grins*

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