5.16.2016

blurred sight





i step outside to clear my head. to clear my eyes. my heart is heavy and laughter echoes out the door until it closes. i can't remember the color of the morning. everything seems too okay without me.

i walk along the dirt road and soak in the grass until i can't see anything but green. it is quiet out here. my thoughts are more at peace. brown picnic tables blur with the tall pines and ponderosas. the sun doesn't come out until the afternoon usually, so i stick with the cold.

the horses munch on the grass, and i try to empty the thoughts from my head. i am a foolish girl, and i know the way to the top of the mountain, but i am stuck with staring until my eyes turn dull gray and all i am is dust.

a wilted flower sits in my hands and we are one the same. there is much to feel, but there are things you don't say. so we sit.

until dawn turns to dusk and we are crumbled and forgotten.

you didn't come to look for me.

it didn't surprise me after all.  (my heart is more blurred than my sight and i run around in circles, but there are things even the blind can see.)

here i lay to rest. 


18 comments:

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    1. i feel you. but don't forget to hope. the light is still alive.

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  2. There is a deep rooted sadness here and I can't decide if it is because I know this for myself or because I know this for you and I can't fix it.

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    1. *hugs you until my arms are sore* There's a reason for it and I won't rest until light springs from the darkest parts.

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  3. Too beautiful for words. <3

    Sophia xx
    lantern-in-her-hand.blogspot.com
    theinkpotgirl.blogspot.com

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    1. and hinted with a little sadness. remember that not all darkness is beautiful. sending love your way, sophia.

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    1. o l i v a wawadawjdawdkwadmwakdwahfria <33333

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    2. same <333333333
      also i tagged you for something on my blog :))))))))))))

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  5. whatcanisaythathasn'talreadybeensaid

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  6. *throws things at*

    You strange thing, you.

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    1. at you.

      but maybe just at, who knows

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    2. *catches all the things like a ninja* *impresses self*

      I try. *flips hair*

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