5.19.2016

this is where i learned love.

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  silence. 
nothing in the air except the call of the gulls
down on the beach. 

the waves roll over the shore to wash down the things of yesterday.
of yester...me. she had eyes worn down to the color gray. 
     do you hear the rolling waves? they call my old name. she is on the sea.
she is...gone.

    silence.
wait, there is a sound.
wait, there is a beating.

a cough breaks across the sea. a longing for life.
water pours out of my lungs.
oxygen runs through my cold fingers and -- 
      golden dust runs across the sky. 
   glory flows here.
God's breath.

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i stretch my arm out the window of the car.
it had been too long since i visited the ocean.
there it was.
  deep blue.           

he had asked me why i came out this far.
so far from home. from the mountains.
i said something. he didn't believe me.
"take your time. then go back. don't run forever."

i laughed crystal tears. could he see right through me?
running.            
it was the one thing i knew.
i collected seashells and sat until the
sand turned white.

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i listen to your voice. it is the color of summer sunshine.
my heart doesn't hurt this time. 
     moved on?

no, those are the wrong words.
this feels like pure love. heavy on the pure.
i ran along the side of the sea
until it was all that ran through my veins.
      holy. 

i traced the scars on my lungs.
God's breath? holiness in the making.
       there you are.

it is in the middle of the afternoon.
      love patterns the carpet,
seeping in through the window.
i came back. i stayed.

oh hey, i love you. i needed to say it.



34 comments:

  1. I love reading poems. They always carry so much emotion. Beautiful!

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    1. i know. they hold my heart. <3 thank you, Vanessa!

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  2. WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAT

    EVEN

    JUST

    HAPPENED.

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    1. LAUGHING UNTIL I AM DEAD. you both. ouwhch. I LOVE YOU.

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  3. ohmygosh.
    magic just appeared on my computer screen.

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    1. screaming so loud right now. <333 thank you, Elissa!!

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  4. this. is. incredible. <3
    your words always leave me thinking, cally, this one no exception.

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    1. oh my goodness, autumn girl. thank you for sticking around and reading all this crazy stuff. yikes. i love you. <33

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  5. How can you be so incredibly talented? This is just plain gorgeous. Now I want to visit the sea.

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    1. God's breath ;D that's how. *laughs forever* thank you so much, andrea girl. go visit the sea and feel the sand between your toes. it does wonders.

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    2. :) I must go to the closest thing I've got to the sea - it's finally warm enough here out by the Great Lakes.

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    3. WOOO. i hope the sun shines warmly and your heart overflows with golden rays, andrea. :) enjoy the Great Lakes when you go!

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  6. Have you ever been to the ocean? *squints at you*

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    1. YES. ONCE. i was about ten and i swallowed a mouthful of saltwater and about died and the waves were tall and heavy and SO WONDERFUL OH MY GOODNESS.

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  7. i came back. i stayed. FREAKING OUT OVER HERE COME QUICK

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    1. HI I'M CRYING AND I'LL BE THERE SOON

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  8. *cowers at how good you are*

    in the case that you've never been to the ocean, when you visit me some day i'll take you. <3

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    1. cris. jords.

      SO MUCH YES. it is a little fuzzy in my mind so a trip to the ocean is definitely needed. the ocean + you????? absolutely perfect. here i come. <33

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    1. that is good good good. <3 thank you, Sophia!!

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  10. "no, those are the wrong words.
    this feels like pure love. heavy on the pure.
    i ran along the side of the sea
    until it was all that ran through my veins.
    holy. "

    pjncetbtcnoqwehhcnr8y32bbc gpxcbo;nux'IOWBFEIEWBED

    ok, ok, ok WHOA. <3

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    1. KATIE I AM CRYING BECAUSE I LOVE YOU AND AWOHEUFHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *breaks down with hugs and love like a rain cloud*

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  11. Omg. I'm speechless. This is so perfect I could cry. <3

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    1. CINDY OH MY GOODNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS. i think i'm the speechless one. thank you to the stars!! xx

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  12. I missed this one, and it's now one of my faves of yours. So pretty and picturesque, and powerful all at once.

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    1. also BEAUTIFUL new design, I sensed Ava's hand before I even saw her credit at the bottom ;)

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    2. are these tears on my face. THEY ARE. i am sobbing. this is one of my favorites and i am so, so glad you found it! thank you with all i am.

      p.s. i know!! i am in love and ava is the sweetest thing.

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  13. i have subsequently proceeded to curl up on the sofa because i can't handle how beautiful this piece is i crai

    aND OH HEY i love you too babe and everything in this whole blessed blog xx

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    1. am i dying. i'm dying. you are the best star in the night sky. <3

      AH. amwoanhd. you have my love. xxxxxxxxooooo

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