1.23.2016

a novel

http://fellowmagazine.com/blogs/journal/73105923-hostel-fish

after i left,
i realized i had nothing to say.
no big finish,
no complete summary.

nothing.

but i had the small things
to write a novel about.

the way you linger on hugs longer,
and the pain in your heart because you didn't want to leave.
the way she looked down and fiddled with her hands,
as if she almost let a piece of her heart slip through.
and the way you clutch your stomach,
after laughing way too hard at nothing.

and the way i will miss you after every goodbye.

now,
those things...

those things i could write a novel about.

i'm not as ready as i thought i was.


19 comments:

  1. i could write a novel with our conversations.

    it'd be called: "Camp. The Weather. And How freaking much Jordy despises the ugly guy on Starwars."

    as always this post makes me want to cry, but I won't because holiday is watching and she'd never let it go. XD

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    1. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA. OWWWWWWWW. yes yes. yessssss. i'd read that. i totally would. ow. that is so funny.

      ouch to that too. it's so true. i'm like, "i'd cry my heart out if i was alone here on earth so no one could see."

      all the love, my jords. ♥♥

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  2. ugh

    I'm weird 'cause I hate goodbyes. :-P

    I have a hard time EVERY STINKING TIME we get together, but especially when it's a big group because I'm all like.... I don't know. I just feel like there was not enough. I want enough time to talk and relate and be us, so much time that we stop talking about what's going on in our lives and start talking about the way the sky looks and the way God binds all the broken pieces together and the feel of the wind. Or get to the moment when we've run out of all the things to say and we just sit there together, in a silence that is mutually joyful, lovely, and pure, knowing that God is speaking, and that is all we need to hear, because He is who we have in common anyway.

    Simply put, I miss you and I cannot wait for the Wedding Banquet of the Lamb, where there will no more have to be goodbyes, and we won't have to worry about trying to fit it all into a time limit, because there will be eternity.

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    1. so I totally had to email you the reply instead because it was over 4,096 characters and I about died laughing so YEAAAH. *snap, gun hands, and tongue click*

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    2. ALSO IT'S SO APPROPRIATE BECAUSE YOU WROTE A NOVELLA COMMENT AND I WROTE A NOVEL COMMENT. HAHAHAHAH. wowie.

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  3. Such amazing writing. I'm in love. <3

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    1. *squishes you in a hug* who r u. ♥♥

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  4. This piece of writing is quite... novel.

    B-)

    *dies*

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    1. SMOOOOOOOTHHHH. WOW. I SHOULD HAVE EXPECTED THAT.

      *puts on sunglasses too*

      8-)

      *they are more like goggles whoops*

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  5. cAlly. this is wow. ((i feel as if i just read a piece straight from an angel))
    this made me feel something and i can't quite put it in words but whheeww you have a such a special and amazing gift of writing<3

    ps: if you ever do write a novel, save the first few copies for me ;)

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    1. BABE. BRB I JUST GOT TO GET THESE SCREAMS OUT WOWOWOW. ♥♥ *hands you a bunch of chocolate and hugs bc wow* all glory to the One who gave me it. whewh.♥

      p.s. are you kidding me right now. OF COURSE. *tackles you*

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  6. This is beautiful. So beautiful. It's those things, those little things that are not so little.

    -T. x

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    1. IT'S SO TRUE. I'm pretty sure I'm made out of simple things & little moments. ♥ ily.

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  7. why do i feel like everything you write has already been imprinted on my fingertips?

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    1. ALSO IF HE ENDS UP LOOKING LIKE THAT I'LL DESTROY HIM AND THROW HIM OUT OF THE GANG.

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    2. maybe because you touched it before the ink dried???? ;)

      HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. *laughs until my lungs fall out* can't wait.

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  8. THIS IS SO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL I CAN'T EVEN SPEAK TO YOU RIGHT NOW.
    it's like that part in Narnia Prince Caspian when they're standing in the subway and Lucy's like, "It feels like magic"

    this
    feels
    like
    magic.


    wow

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    1. btw I awarded your lovely blog for the Liebster thing. ;)

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    2. ABBBIIEEEEE. YOU ARE THE COOLEST BEAN RIGHT NOW. ♥♥ *punches a wall* wow wowowo. THANK.

      suhweet. i'll get right on that. tomorrow. *procrastinates* i got dis. ♥

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