5.22.2015

stay here with me

Annapurna, Nepal



I saw the sun today.

I saw blue today.

And I felt loved today.

Oh, it's been so long. Too long since I've felt that warmth. I know that the sun is there -- that He's there, but I forget how it feels.

Dear God, stay here with me.

And I've been too tired for life. Buried under the earth. 

I've missed more now than ever.

And it just tears you apart, you know? It gets worse day after day. 

It's been too long since I've looked into your eyes.

So I've been praying hard. And talking to my best friends every chance I get. But those aren't that helpful, you know. It makes the tear bigger with every goodbye. 

God be with you.

I haven't had the time to do what I've wanted to do for awhile. It's the end of the school year which means school school school. And it's just piles and piles of dirt along with the rain falling. So I'm packed in the earth tight. 

But I rose out of that dirt.

And I felt the sun and saw the blue underneath the gray.

Dear God, stay here with me. 

A raw raw body. A broken soul.

But the light finally shone on in. Broken open so that the light may flood in. 

And it felt better than I ever could have thought.

Ye of little faith.

Why did you doubt.

Oh my Father. 

I'm sorry. 

stay here with me. 

it's been too long. 
i've missed you.
stay.

(deut 31:6)
I will never leave nor forsake you, 

oh my daughter.

oh my Father. 




p.s. totes awesome post coming monday.

and an addition to my blog on thursday.
*grins* 

p.p.s. i love you all.
"just thought you ought to know." 

26 comments:

  1. Gorgeous.
    So excited for the upcoming surprises ;) <3

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  2. *smiling contently*

    And we all love you Cally. Duh.

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    1. well how would i know you could be just commenting to make me comment and we'll all be commenting without loving each other and so i love love love you

      XDDDDDd *no punctuation*

      p.s. i am lameo and need to check your blog for replies to my comments *tears and sorrow* only if you made it so i can see your blog

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  3. I am dying because you know you know you know. You always know. ♥

    xoxo

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  4. *whump*

    "But I rose out of that dirt."

    THAT NEEDS TO BE THE ANTHEM OF MY LIFE.

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    1. whump. so funny for no reason. maybe because i'm tired???? XDd

      I LOVE YOUUUUUU. THE ANTHEM OF YOUR LIFE WOULD BE HILARIOUS AND GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL.

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  5. *softly cries*

    thank you, thank you, thank you. i love you too, cally <3

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    1. ohmygosh. <3 i love you too, my dear autumn.

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    1. *actually sniffs because my nose is running*

      thank you, isabel. <3

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  7. I LOVE THIS. BUT I LOVE YOU MORE.

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    1. I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU MORE.

      also i like your comments because you rarely comment. and when you do, they are good good good. <3

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  8. I LOVE THISSSS! How do you do it?!
    And I can't wait to see these surprises :)

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    1. with my hands.

      i kid, i kid. XD

      THANK YOU LAURENNNNNNNN. I CAN'T WAIT EITHER.

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  9. This is way too lovely. Beautiful. <3

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  10. These words elegantly describe my life! Thank you so much for posting!

    Hannah from Grace in Everything

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    1. Waaaaagfthehnnnnanskkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. *dies* it's my pleasure to post for you, Hannah. :-D

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  11. This is literally me and its been a week or so since I'm back on track. #happy

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