7.16.2016

i'm older now




i miss... you.
it was dark,
but the words echoed.
a light on quiet shadows.

 i didn't tell you that i missed me too.
the younger me. the one with bright eyes.
the one who knew what to say,
who was as innocent as the clear morning.

but we're older now. and it hurts.
because those sweet little hands are gone now,
and i kneel on this wet dirt,
calloused and bruised.

what am i holding?
it is all i hold dear.

see, these are the things they left behind.
i'm one of the things they left behind.
it hurts when everyone goes on without you.
did i tell you i missed you?
because i miss you more than ever.
i miss who i was more than ever.

these are the days of an older me.
but all older means is sadder.
sorrow weighs on me
like fog on the cold gray mountains.

still, i will rejoice.
still, i will bow my head before the Lord.
and still yet i will sing.
Jehovah Nissi written on my heart.
there is one who will never forsake me,
whose love is unfailing,
and who has grace overflowing.

 and surely i am with you always. (matthew 28:20)
xx
MY PEACHES. Hey, I'm off to camp but I'll be back in two weeks. see you when July is over. 
be good and learn to love every precious minute you have.
email me when you're lonely.
i'll be back.



18 comments:

  1. autumnJuly 17, 2016 at 8:30 AM

    HOW DO YOU DO IT YOUR POETRY <33
    and that verse has been one that has stuck with me for years. so so so beautiful and true.
    have fun at camp!!

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:52 PM

      it's all God, i'm sure. i know that's a cliche thing to say, but it rings true in this old house. He is good. camp was good. xx i'm glad to be back, autumn.

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  2. Grace AnneJuly 17, 2016 at 8:31 AM

    Ohhhhhh I love this so much <3<3<3 Love that verse.
    HAVE AN AMAZING TIME AT CAMP!!!!!!!!!

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:53 PM

      awaawa. camp was good and i learned more than i ever thought i would. summer is coming to an end though and that makes me sad. x love sent your way, grace anne.

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  3. Hannah JoyJuly 17, 2016 at 8:40 AM

    Okay....

    ow this one hurt a little. Maybe a lot. I think it hit too close to home...again....

    But rejoice, my dear sister. I will say it again, rejoice! For He is gentle, but He also knows when we need to push a little harder against the darkness. Unsheathe your sword. Eyes open. Breath bated. This is a battle. It's already won, but keep fighting like your life depends on it. Live like one adopted, not like the orphan you once were.

    I love you. Can't wait to see you at camp today.

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:54 PM

      And I have no words but I know it's okay because you're my twin and we're usually thinking the same thing. I love you. He will keep His promises.

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  4. Tane HannahJuly 17, 2016 at 9:08 AM

    This poem is stunning. Your words went straight to this heart of mine and I was full of emotion while I read.

    See you soon, Cally. Have a good time at camp.

    -T.
    x

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:54 PM

      And all I know is that God works miracles. xx camp was good and wild and crazy hard. but that's the way things go.

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  5. AnonymousJuly 17, 2016 at 8:05 PM

    Oh my goodness, this is perfection as its best. How...what...where in the world did you get all this talent?! <3 <3

    Sophia xx
    A Lantern In Her Hand
    The Inkpot Girl

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:55 PM

      I'M LAUGHING HARD. because God is good and he is the one who works in wonders. u kno it. x

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  6. elisabethJuly 17, 2016 at 9:27 PM

    oUCHES

    now excuse me while slowly curl up in my couch and wonder where all your words flow from and reread this because it aches and i like it so much xx

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:56 PM

      and i'll know that when my heart aches and the rain falls, you'll be here to read even the hardest things. so be it. God with you. x sending wildflowers down the road to your sweet heart. x

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  7. UnknownJuly 18, 2016 at 12:15 PM

    <3 <3 <3 I know the feeling, but it is so true - we are never forsaken. have fun at camp!

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:57 PM

      never forsaken. let my heart ring of that truth. camp was crazy and fun and i laughed hard but cried harder. God is good. x

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  8. jordan skyJuly 20, 2016 at 8:26 AM

    ughhhh, cally, your way with words is off the chartz.

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 2:59 PM

      jordan sky you already know that the only way these words even speak life is because the Beholder is greater than my weak hands. x

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  9. AbbieeAugust 1, 2016 at 12:42 PM

    "i didn't tell you that i missed me too."
    wow. <3 i'm honestly speechless and in awe rn

    but also this whole thing reminds me of a character in my book so tHEREFORE I'M LIKE DOUBLY INSPIRED BY THIS BEAUTIFUL POEM AND OMG U R AMAZING OK

    lotsalove,
    abbiee

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    1. Cally DeclanAugust 8, 2016 at 3:01 PM

      laughs my guts out. abbiee go run wild with the dreams that fly with the ones daring enough to take life as an adventure. xx

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