goodbye

photo creds to the wild dreamer for this pic

i watched the air balloons today.
they floated softly up
and i watched them with tired morning eyes.
there are days you have to say goodbye
to your old self. to who you were.
to who they were.

the other day i sat alone and just cried.
i don't even know why.
but i know i needed to.
the bluebirds sang to each other
and the wind blew hard and wild.
oh, it was one of the hardest goodbyes i ever had to give.

i drove in silence back home,
the highway stretched out before me.
she was asleep in the backseat
and i had my sleepy thoughts to myself.
we got up early to drive back.

i felt it then. the change in my bones.
i can't go back to how it was. to how i was.
change.
my old, old friend. you have come again.
i know it is time and i've already mourned the coming.

but here i stand with shaky knees and eyes afraid,
and with a heart ready for the hard, sweet taste of rain.
i'm ready for more goodbyes...but only because
the hello will be worth all that He takes.

come, let us return to the Lord.
he has torn us to pieces
but he will heal us;
he has injured us
but he will bind up our wounds.
hosea 6:1

xx
remember who our God is.