12.18.2015

today





i thought of you today.

i wondered what you would be like -- serious like cloudy days or laughing in the summer breeze? eyes deep green like emeralds hidden or the silent blue fading as the sun sinks? your eyes would be the only ones i would know. the only ones.

i missed you today.

i didn't see the sun sink or the moon rise. i was left to writing without any company. i am learning to lean on things Invisible. but i still missed your company. i still missed your presence.

i let go of a piece of who i want you to be today.

it's a long process, but it is a good one. letting go of who i want you to be and giving you up to my King, my Father, my Best Friend. he knows better than i. he knows better than i. he is forming you into the person you're supposed to be. he's forming me into the person i'm supposed to be.

hard stuff, huh, my friend?

don't i know it.

don't we know it.

we are learning. so be kind and courageous and humble. be gentle and think before you speak. laugh until your stomach hurts and cry when you must. learn to trust, be more heart. stand steadfast in God.

we are learning.




19 comments:

  1. Whoa, Cally. You words are more than beautiful. I loved:"i am learning to lean on things invisible". Amazing, my friend. AMAZING. Every time I read your writing it always goes with whatever I'm going through or what I've been feeling. I don't know how you do it, but thank you for sharing your incredible writing. <3

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    1. Eve you are m e l t i n g my heart. owie. ♥ i am beyond grateful for that and it is just so BIZARRE. we serve a wonderful God. always always. i'll always write and hope you'll listen, Evey girl. *hugs*

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  2. k im crying this made me feel so good and warm and filled up and fuzzy and a little bit like crying. your words are so full of goodness. thank you for reminding me of all these things ps this was super relevant to me too like ah :')

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    1. k i'm crying bc u r the sweetest peach on the beach. ♥ *falls on the ground in a puddle of tears and love*

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  3. my heart.
    ouch.
    it just exploded into rabbit fluff and confetti.

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    1. AAJFHFFAFAFAFAHA. waaaaaaaaaaa. let me mend it for you and send it back post haste. ♥ it's a special thing and you need it.

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  4. thanks for putting this into words <3 this is so relevant to me right now.

    your writing always leaves me feeling so encouraged. thanks for that!

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    1. ohmygoodness, pumpkin. i am BEYOND happy about that. i am thankful for the Lord who speaks through me and into hearts of other people.

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  5. I needed this more than you know. <3

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    1. *squees* someone out there knew that, hun. ♥♥

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  6. Oh my, this actually almost made me cry (and that is hard to do!) first thing I've read on your blog and I'm thrilled to keep looking!

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    1. NINA. That warms my heart right up like a nice fire. ♥♥ I hope you'll stay and join me on this crazy lil adventure. *grins*

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  7. reread this because my heart is overflowing with so much love for this post. before i weep all over my computer and destroy the hard drive, i'll make my move /hugs/. this was me today and i just adore you + your writing <3<3

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    1. HAHAHAHA LISSSS. OW MY HEART. I adore you and your little pieces. oh my goodness you preCIOUS BEAN. *gathers you up in a hug*

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  8. woah. that last paragraph really, really is what i needed right now. woah. Oh, wow, my heart is running over with peace and joy and things generally found on Cally's blog <3
    thank you once again.

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    1. *falls over dead*
      *RIP Cally died of too much love*
      autumn i adore every time you come over here and leave a comment. SQUEE. it just brings me so much joy to have you here. awgfsklf. ♥♥

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  9. LITERALLY THE SWEETEST AND MOST PRECIOUS BOX OF COMMENTS I HAVE EVER GOTTEN. WAAAA. YOU GUYS KILL ME ♥

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