today

i thought of you today.

i wondered what you would be like -- serious like cloudy days or laughing in the summer breeze? eyes deep green like emeralds hidden or the silent blue fading as the sun sinks? your eyes would be the only ones i would know. the only ones.

i missed you today.

i didn't see the sun sink or the moon rise. i was left to writing without any company. i am learning to lean on things Invisible. but i still missed your company. i still missed your presence.

i let go of a piece of who i want you to be today.

it's a long process, but it is a good one. letting go of who i want you to be and giving you up to my King, my Father, my Best Friend. he knows better than i. he knows better than i. he is forming you into the person you're supposed to be. he's forming me into the person i'm supposed to be.

hard stuff, huh, my friend?

don't i know it.

don't we know it.

we are learning. so be kind and courageous and humble. be gentle and think before you speak. laugh until your stomach hurts and cry when you must. learn to trust, be more heart. stand steadfast in God.

we are learning.

♥♥