7.26.2015

too much

-my photo- 

 i was doing okay
i was staring at her from across the table
and i said something about her tongue
i burst out laughing and she was just amused at me
then i laughed too hard
too fast
too soon.

because the tears that you try to hold back
the ones that try to hide behind laughter
the ones that scream of goodbyes
those come rushing.
too hard
too fast
too soon.

it hurt and i couldn't stop it.
the last conversation for awhile.
the last look in her eyes.
the last hug.
the last.
last.

goodbyes come too hard
too fast
too soon

i already miss her. i miss them. i miss hearing her laughter from across the room. i miss hearing her words flow from the heart. i miss a hand to hold when i need it. i miss everything and nothing and more. 

i don't understand
idon'tunderstandidon'tunderstand
why does pain have to hurt so much



p.s. i'm going camping. this time with my fam. i'll be back by the end of the week, i think.
mountains heal the soul...
and also break it when you leave.
ow ow ow. i love you guys. 


26 comments:

  1. oh oh ahh
    have a wonderful time
    i loved reading this a lot
    love it lots
    from me

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    1. oh man.

      i will girl. i will.

      from me ♥

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  2. Completely, utterly, astonishingly beautiful.

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  3. Whoa. Your poetry speaks to me. I love how real, raw, and beautiful your writing is. I hope you have a terrific time camping with your family. :)

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    1. awekg. awwwwwwww, you are so sweet. i'm dying. thank you, Eve girl.

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  4. This poem is amazing, Cally! It can connect with something in everyone of us<3 You truly have a gift!
    I hope you have a great time camping!
    -Clara

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    1. Aw, that is like....wow. thank you. thank you.

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  5. "I miss everything and nothing and more"

    STORY OF MY LIFEEEEEEEE

    This was lovely, by the way. ;)

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  6. eurghhhhhhhh Cally y u break me

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  7. PAIN HURTS SO MUCH. I actually have a post set up for next week about pain... I'm kind of scared about showcasing it because it's extremely sensitive for me, but eh, I feel the need to write it.

    xoxo Morning

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    1. Oh man. I want to read it. I want to feel those feels and get it all out. I'll be waiting, man. Waiting for it. ♥

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  8. owwws.
    my heart's broken with this piece </3 it was so good i can't even think about anything else but this rn

    (also sending virtual hugs because i think you need some maybe (??) *hugs* enjoy your family camping trip xx)

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    1. i is cries bc i love you aww

      (i need some all the time. oh man. thank you times a billion. i will enjoy it to the best of my ability. agh ♥)

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  9. This is real. Very real.

    Have fun camping! :)

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  10. CALLY CALLY. this is so raw and beautiful and you put a real situation into such beautiful words

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    1. LAUREN. you are the kindest. ♥ thank you.

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  11. Wow! This is such a amazing and beautiful poem and just so..real. I get what you mean in your poem...I had to say goodbye to someone too, a little while back, and I probably won't see that person again for a long long time.
    Enjoy your family camping trip, Cally!
    I'm new to this blog, and I'm loving it. :-)
    -Jollygirl
    http://reflectionsofajollygirl.blogspot.com

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    1. Oh man. Thank you, dear. That is so sweet of you. I am so stinking glad you decided to come check it out. ♥ Checking yours out now. :-)

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  12. This is breaking my heart. It's so beautiful it hurts.

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    1. I'M SO SORRY. but perhaps this kind of pain is the best? ♥

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