i'm crying

flashback.
     i take one look at you. sadness suddenly overwhelms me.
     because this is our goodbye and it always comes.
     i'm crying.
     you see me. and then we both laugh because we're both crying.
        (that laugh where you can hear our hearts breaking to pieces underneath it like a gasp and a plate slipping to the ground shattering.)

memories.
     the sun fell like ripples of apple pie baking. sweet and soft.
     i was okay until i heard your voice. the memory swept across me as waves do over the sand.
     i'm crying.
     my hands are scarred from these good memories that break me down until i am dust.
          (i still see your smile when i close my eyes. these are the things that i cannot handle. where do we go from here?)

right now.
     i can still hear you saying, "please don't cry." when did i ever listen to you, you dork?
     your face is painted across my mind like the melody in someone's favorite song.
     i'm crying.
     the blood in my veins shake until my knees collapse and my lungs gasp for air.
        (i can still see the tears forming in your eyes. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.)


   xx
two camps down for the summer.
tell me how your weekend was.