6.13.2016

i'm crying






flashback.
     i take one look at you. sadness suddenly overwhelms me.
     because this is our goodbye and it always comes.
     i'm crying.
     you see me. and then we both laugh because we're both crying.
        (that laugh where you can hear our hearts breaking to pieces underneath it like a gasp and a plate slipping to the ground shattering.)





memories.
     the sun fell like ripples of apple pie baking. sweet and soft.
     i was okay until i heard your voice. the memory swept across me as waves do over the sand.
     i'm crying.
     my hands are scarred from these good memories that break me down until i am dust.
          (i still see your smile when i close my eyes. these are the things that i cannot handle. where do we go from here?)





right now.
     i can still hear you saying, "please don't cry." when did i ever listen to you, you dork?
     your face is painted across my mind like the melody in someone's favorite song.
     i'm crying.
     the blood in my veins shake until my knees collapse and my lungs gasp for air.
        (i can still see the tears forming in your eyes. i'm sorry. i'm sorry.)


   xx
two camps down for the summer.
tell me how your weekend was.


22 comments:

  1. The pictures! And The words! Together they flow so well <3 I wish I was more involved in camps, it seems like an awesome experience!

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    1. VANESSSSSSSAAAAAAAAA. thank you from the bottom of my weak little heart. <3

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  2. Oh, how I love this. It makes my heart ache but it is so beautiful.

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    1. heart ache, baby. ain't nothing like it. <3

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  3. This is leaving my heart broken. Owwww.

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    1. that's how i leave mine usually. yikes. ♥

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  4. Why do you make my heart heart so <3

    xoxo Morning

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    1. because i am a baby who can't handle emotions. what what. XD <3

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  5. this.
    why do you do this to me.

    i miss talking to you, cally declan.

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    1. i cried like i hadn't heard your voice for ten years. this hurt.

      i miss you.

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  6. y do u make my heart ache/break/soar up on wings like eagleslkdf
    YOU ARE THE MORNING STAR OK?

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    1. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LIFE.

      ouch. the morning star rises relentlessly and i don't think i have that kind of skill. or heart.

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  7. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
    this. this makes me long for a life well lived. <3
    ALSO THE PICTURES GAHHHH

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    1. autumn my girrrrll. ouchie. a life well lived. let me think over that for two years.

      ♥♥♥

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  8. Aw your writing, these words, those pictures <3
    I miss volunteering at camp, you're making me feel things now!
    Love this post, as always. :)

    With love,
    Elizabeth
    http://whimsicalthoughtss.blogspot.com/

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    1. ELIZABETH. WAAAAA. camp is tough and terrible and stinkin amazing. who am i. ♥♥♥

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  9. These people. These beautiful people. Girl you have no idea how this touched me.
    These beautiful people and these words. Wow.
    and i know i am just making random exclamations but that
    is because
    you have left me
    speechless

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    1. i is cryingggggggg. ABIGAIL. You are the sweetest. and this was sad but you loved it and that makes my poor heart glad.

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  10. Whoa. The part about the laugh and the plate breaking and I get this <3

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    1. OWWW. thank you because i needed someone to notice and to get it. thank you. xxxx

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    1. bursting with joy, you sweet thing. x

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